It is incredible how much we pay for being unhappy and still we choose this state very often. I personally always notice it predominantly in my eyes - they look tiny, sunk, without expression. Make up could usually not make much difference. I feel small, I talk very quiet and I avoid being noticed. My posture also shows no confidence. I totally lose myself in a stir of destructive emotions and I can go in a state when even if my biggest dream comes true, I still would feel unable to choose happiness. I have given up being the driver in my own emotion car, which is traveling on my brain map. And the more I think about it, the more I tend to believe that it is a matter of pure habit how quickly I regain control and start driving towards the Town of Happiness. Practice - that's it! The more I do it, the easier it gets every time. This is related to a general psychological preset in our mind - we tend to stick to what we do most often. Simply said, if I am used to being in a happy state, it will be a bit more difficult to get out of it for longer periods of time.
On the other hand, when I have periods of depression, I tend to convince myself that this is my normal state and being happy is just a tiny random incident which comes every now and then. I just accept that happiness is for others because they deserve it more and I spend enormous amount of time feeling sorry for myself. What a waste! This is what I call existing, not living. And the immense destruction this causes on my mind and body is the bill I pay for being unhappy.
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